Matt-chu

I really do need to become organized, I'm just bad at it as a whole. I've got things I should really be sorting out, I've sorted them out in my head but in reality.

Firstly I'll start with the projects in theory. This summer I have to do my social documentary, at the moment I'm just cramming ideas into my head without jotting them down, why I dont jot them down is cause I'm unorganized and lazy (lol), anyway I've been thinking on doing a social doc on people, travel or time, I will keep shooting and see what happens anyway with that.

Another idea that has been bouncing about in my head is the final project I get to do next year, it something I can create myself. I saw another students work from the 2nd year who took lines from a poem and produce images from them, and work really well, but
they had one image that struck a thought in my head. It was a picture of a stairway with a door at the top, the stairwell was dark but there was a light behind the door creeping through... I instantly thought of a song; The Smiths - Theres A Light That Never Goes Out, which then struck another thought, maybe I could take a picture for every song title within that album...Which isn't hard too do, I've imagined all the scenarios already.....
1. The Queen is Dead (good image)
2. Frankly Mr. Shankly (okay image)
3. I Know It's Over (okay image)
4. Never Had No One Ever (good image)
5. Cemetry Gates - (Got a good image for that)
6. Bigmouth Strikes Again (Got a okay imagine for that)
7. The Boy With The Thorn In His Side (Hmmmm, thinking progress)
8. Vicar in a Tutu (lol good image for that)
9. Theres a Light That Never Goes Out (good image
10. Some Girls are Bigger Than Others (good image)

All 10 tracks are do-able images, and its not a final thing, its just an idea so hmm maybe it might work
I've got over projects in my head but I'll update them later

- find motivation
- become efficiently productive
- not think too much about the downs
- get away for a while
- make that connection (with someone)
- disconnect that bond (from someone)
- positivity

*pause*

*Watches the sun go down*

So, you go through loads and trials and tribulations throughout your everyday life, some knock you down, some make you angry, sad or even give you perseverance. Whatever it does its a experience.Maybe one you might want to forget later on, either way its an experience you have to live with.
I have lost motivation to do anything lately, it kind of kicked in when I had to do a 'ortrait' unit for college. That unit left me vulnerable to my ownself, it showed my weaknesses and lack of confidence.
Despite that though, I won't back down from it again, its a trial I want to improve at and at the end say I got through that tribulation. Don't be mistaken, I have not been depressing over a college unit but I suppose that was somewhere to start...

Now the weather and the times are beginning to change I've taken on a new attitude, its the not first time its happen, I'd say this is the 2nd year in a row where I've had to remind myself that you have to move on and get over things. Life isn't fair.....get over it. People don't care or aren't as friendly as they seem...get over it. Your dreams might not pan out the way you want it.....get over it.
This new attitude may be harsher, colder, mean whatever but it is what it is and thats strength to keep going. I'm a realist sitting around, isolating, depressing, stressing and crying does not change a thing.

So you saw those sunshining pictures creep out now the evenings are beginning to bring us warm saturated colours, colours we all seem to love but I'll try not to bias myself on those, I've some ideas that need to spring to life, and I have some time off coming up which I will do it in, hoping the weather prevails.

Anyway I have seen some work this week which I think are really really good, such as Lij, Dusk, A Bit Lonely, Charger Upfront, and Before the Storm, I would advertise them here but it seems you must subscribe to DA for that haha, all these Images are in my favourites anyway if you want to have a look.
Farewell and so long.

Now when Kate Bush was singing about her own self-doubt in the song 'The Fog' I don't think she was faced with the dilema of having to produce a series of portraits throughtout the ages.....It sounds like the simpliest think (I know) I swear it should be too, but it isn't.
I haven't stressed on a unit so much. And this is where the self-doubt comes into play; it isn't a doubt on my place in photography or any technical skills, its just the doubt of being able to perform and step up to the challenge.
Portrait photography becomes so much more difficult because of the small things that come with it.....the "baggage" having to sort out a time and date with the sitter, FINDING THE SITTER, having the right weather conditions, lighting conditions, the right props, the right idea, and the biggest factor in it all....................The ability to communicate and direct your subject, tell them what to do and how to do can be the hardest thing. It may take a while for both of you to get truely comfortable and casual with the situaution, and until that time arrives you wont get the shot your after....

So right now, am I saying I need a hand. . . . "What are talking about here? Practice?"
Yes practice, I know what I want in my head, I just need to practice conveying my ideas over to another and getting them to understand it. So I want to practice portraiture on all of you, yes all.

I have loads of mini-projects forming in my mind, I want to get started on them as soon as possible but the problem is time! I have little of it.
I need to get starting on some of these projects aswell to help me with my future portfolio, they will also help my developments.
Not to mention I got like 2 "semi-major" tasks lined up, to raise money for sports relief at work my department has chosen to create a calender...and if you haven't guessed it yet, yours truely will be the photographer....
Theres also another job someone else wants me to do for them, I have already warned them...the camera can not change ugly...however lucky for them they are not ugly.
So maybe you might start seeing more stuff on here, and in result be seeing a lot less of me, it will all depend on how things pan out.
As for me I shall try to remain sane throughout 2008.